A blind hen also finds a grain
Does it sometimes seem to you as if you are experiencing more trouble in your life than others? As if others were "getting it easier" than you? And then you start thinking…. Why can't it happen to me.
That's exactly where I found myself, less than 7 months back.
You see, 7 months ago I and my best half (of course my husband) decided to take the biggest step yet. After a successful 3 years of love sharing in our marriage, we are ready for a miracle. We are ready to be called Mum & Dad for the rest of our lives.
It's easy ?! So fast as flash, as long as one does the actions. Then I can show off like a peacock with the news of life growing inside of me.
So start the biggest, most difficult journey I still had to take in my life.
A journey consists of different fasteners. You see it starting with a decision. Then one plans to travel. These plans can only be put into effect when exercised. But it didn't immediately realize. Because one always wants to get everything DADLY.
My journey consisted of frustrations, days of crying or praying, trusting in God and His word, and not trusting other days. My emotions & thoughts were like the Annaconda rut at Gold reef city - "never a dull moment". But it was not always shared with others. This was a struggle within me, with myself.
I was totally obsessed with pregnant women. One dead ordinary Sunday morning in the church I greeted with the news of a girlfriend who is pregnant. And right away I was out of the field, because why can they, but I don't? My luck to them was never fake. But the battle here inside me didn't want to end. No matter how many times I asked God to take the feeling away. Disappointment in myself, in my husband, in my ability, was all that struck my heart and my head.
Psalm 92: 10-11: “For, behold, your enemies, O Lord, for, behold, your enemies shall perish, all the workers of iniquity shall be scattered. But you raise my horn like a buffalo, I'm anointed with fresh oil. ”That's the promise God gives me on March 8, 2017. I'll be raised by Him.
On April 21, 2017, I was at IT'S TIME when Oom Angus prayed for infertility & I was in faith!
And without realizing God already confirmed in March 2017 that His promise in Psalm 37: 4 "and delight in the Lord, He will give you the desires of your heart."
I then decided to do a pregnancy test on June 16, 2017, because he would be negative again anyway. And guess guess call… .. POSITIVE! My body can't move. Stuck on an icy white elephant I was wondering how it could happen!
And then I realized the saying a blind man also finds a grain. Unexpected happiness is what God has given me. Because after 7 months, I got the perfect gift of everything. I'm going to give life to a bunch of love
That's exactly where I found myself, less than 7 months back.
You see, 7 months ago I and my best half (of course my husband) decided to take the biggest step yet. After a successful 3 years of love sharing in our marriage, we are ready for a miracle. We are ready to be called Mum & Dad for the rest of our lives.
It's easy ?! So fast as flash, as long as one does the actions. Then I can show off like a peacock with the news of life growing inside of me.
So start the biggest, most difficult journey I still had to take in my life.
A journey consists of different fasteners. You see it starting with a decision. Then one plans to travel. These plans can only be put into effect when exercised. But it didn't immediately realize. Because one always wants to get everything DADLY.
My journey consisted of frustrations, days of crying or praying, trusting in God and His word, and not trusting other days. My emotions & thoughts were like the Annaconda rut at Gold reef city - "never a dull moment". But it was not always shared with others. This was a struggle within me, with myself.
I was totally obsessed with pregnant women. One dead ordinary Sunday morning in the church I greeted with the news of a girlfriend who is pregnant. And right away I was out of the field, because why can they, but I don't? My luck to them was never fake. But the battle here inside me didn't want to end. No matter how many times I asked God to take the feeling away. Disappointment in myself, in my husband, in my ability, was all that struck my heart and my head.
Psalm 92: 10-11: “For, behold, your enemies, O Lord, for, behold, your enemies shall perish, all the workers of iniquity shall be scattered. But you raise my horn like a buffalo, I'm anointed with fresh oil. ”That's the promise God gives me on March 8, 2017. I'll be raised by Him.
On April 21, 2017, I was at IT'S TIME when Oom Angus prayed for infertility & I was in faith!
And without realizing God already confirmed in March 2017 that His promise in Psalm 37: 4 "and delight in the Lord, He will give you the desires of your heart."
I then decided to do a pregnancy test on June 16, 2017, because he would be negative again anyway. And guess guess call… .. POSITIVE! My body can't move. Stuck on an icy white elephant I was wondering how it could happen!
And then I realized the saying a blind man also finds a grain. Unexpected happiness is what God has given me. Because after 7 months, I got the perfect gift of everything. I'm going to give life to a bunch of love
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